Slythe

This guy is my ultimate crush. Since seeing him at Fantastic Four, I can't get enough of his charm, beauty, physique, whatever attributes he has. He is very handsome. He can beat Brad Pitt when it comes to beauty. He is an obsession.  Glad to know that he has a gay brother, Scott Evans, an equally handsome, hot guy. But when it comes to overall beauty, eyes and looks, Chris is always at the top... for me and those fans who lust for his looks and body.  If I have something I could wish for this ultimately and painfully hot guy, it would be his sexuality. I wish Chris Evans were gay. I wish him gay. I want him like his brother. But there is the reality that stings. I'm still hopeful though. I don't know... I just can't get enough of him. And that make it or rather him, an obsession.     

The thing I failed to do when I was young was setting myself free. When I was reading stories and watching gay films, I envy how the stories and movies project their young characters though stages with their lifelong friends, having fun under the shades of the tree, running in the meadows, taunting at the beach, laughing while chasing themselves near the river, soaking themselves under the sun with happy faces and hearing other's laughters as they match with their own. I missed those settings because I failed to experience them. I was not able to set myself free. I was full of insecurities and other things that hampered the happiness that I would have enjoyed. If only I could experience those things even I am already in my 20's or 30's, laughing with my special someone, pulling and pushing ourselves and holding our hands together in the open. Those are the gestures, happy settings that I am envious about and that I would also like to experience even when my age is past th

I am still writing chapters for my story I Wish You Knew . I have gained inspiration writing this story after reading so many stories of gay love, salvation and redemption. I have fun making reflections, empathizing with the characters, selecting the settings and  integrating other elements in which I have created from my imagination. Yes, the story is fiction. There's one guy that asked me if the story is a reflection of my personal experiences, but I gave an honest response.But he still considers the story as my experiences and that the character is my resemblance. I am flattered to know that but for my others readers, to insinuate honesty, the characters of the story are all fictional. I have fun writing the story and I already said it. I already have an ending of the story and even a sequel. Yes, a sequel. The story will have a sequel. I've selected the title: Forbidden Colours. Forbidden Colours is a 1983 song of David Sylvian and Ryuichi Sakamoto. This is the soundt